Ducks in a row
Go Ducks Quack Quack
It's human nature if you are petty, emotionally immature and vindictive. Listen, I've always liked reading your takes and opinions over the years and I know from context that you're dealing with some degree of depression and on that front I've been there big time and I empathize.
But being a hockey fan has its ups and downs and you just gotta tough it out sometimes. Some like you want to avoid the worst result possible for the way the season ends, others view it as fleeting and see there's some recompense for all the suffering this year with a high draft pick and leverage that more towards hope than vindictive desire to see others suffer because they don't cheer the way you cheer.
Even if only a small part of you is hoping that the 2023 first round pick is a failure to spite the fans you disapprove of, that's a really petty and vindictive way to look at things.
Again, how would you react if my response was, "well if that's how you feel, some small part of me hopes the team finishes last 3 years in a row so you can really feel bad." It's essentially the same logic and intent, but I bet you'd feel like it was a pretty petty and shitty thing to say.
Everyone has a dark side. Everyone feels things at times they wish they didn't feel it sometimes just happens no matter how mature they are. Feelings can't be totally controlled. Being mature is controlling your actions despite your feelings.
I wish I could feel some level of happiness from this past season but I don't. I wish I didn't feel like wanting others who cheered for the Ducks to finish dead last (which made me unhappy) to feel unhappy after getting what they wish for.
Hockey is the only sport I give a damn about anymore and the Ducks had finished dead last for the first time ever while also allowing the most shots in a single season in NHL history. That I will never forget and such a horrible season has come at one of the worst possible times for me. These last few years have brought me so much sadness and most of it wont be changing anytime soon. Not a lot nowadays seems to makes me happy.
I know there are some people that probably don't like seeing what I am saying and its not my intention to upset anyone I am just honestly venting and its helping a little.