Well amigos, you’ll have to forgive me, as I’m mildly intoxicated now, but I think I’ve hit a mini breaking point with regards to the whole “career” business…
Since separating from the military it hasn’t been easy to find good roles. Part of that being that I did college before the military (got a useless journalism degree, back in 2009) and separated from the military older than most but without having gone to school specifically *for* what I wanted to do next. I have a bit of experience in sales and a bit of experience as a UX/web designer. I left a decent gig out in Idaho to come back to NY - because our child is on the way and this where all our family is - for a project management job in NY. I made the move across country because I had this job lined up. And today they let me go because they decided that, even though I have the product development/UX experience they need and adequate project management skills, my PM style is “too military” and not conducive to their creative environment.
Which puts me at 35 years old, 2 months from being a father, and unemployed. And my resume is a hodge podge of sales, UX and military leadership from police/SWAT/special operations, that doesn’t translate into much for me in the civilian world. I don’t really want to be a cop again, but there is virtually nothing I can find that isn’t entry level, and frankly? I can’t support a wife and child in NY, in this economy, in ANY entry level gig. Yes, my wife works when she’s not 8 months pregnant. Still.
I’m super intelligent and hard working. Honestly. I crushed my SATs back in the day, my test scores, IQ tests, aptitude tests, etc. are off the charts. I have no meaningful civilian experience and it’s killing me and I can’t take some bullshit entry level job designed for a 23 year old because I have a family and bills and such. I never should have left the military. And I feel so f***ed right now and just so fed up with the application/hiring process and that state of the modern job market/economy.
Feeling very hopeless and angry tonight.