JurassicTunga
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I was out riding in Drumheller yesterday. The thought of someone plowing me from behind has crossed my mind for years (especially when I often encounter truck drivers who drive too close to cyclists intentionally), but even more so after these recent days.Been doing some driving on the highway this weekend and seeing cyclists on the shoulder… Just upsets me.
I've been wondering how this was effecting you considering your accident. Glad to see you're still out riding despite everything.I was out riding in Drumheller yesterday. The thought of someone plowing me from behind has crossed my mind for years (especially when I often encounter truck drivers who drive too close to cyclists intentionally), but even more so after these recent days.
We did pass a Flames flag at half mast while out there though, so I had to turn back to take a pic.
I've been wondering how this was effecting you considering your accident. Glad to see you're still out riding despite everything.
Our brains work very different with my extreme anxietyYeah, people die doing everyday, benign, and ordinary things all the time so you can't let that keep you from doing things you love. Each time a car passed me on the highway, the thought of the Gaudreaus did cross my mind, however. If they drove a little too close, I'd think: aren't they aware of all the news over the last couple of days? And if they gave me a wide berth, I'd think: I wonder if they did that considering the tragedy? Of course, I'm sure a lot of it is just in my head too.
I know I started watching the flames with y'all after Gaudreau left, so unlike all of you I don't have close to the same attachment to him as a player.
but man have I been sad these past few days. No hockey death has affected me more. The mom and dad going through a parents worst nightmare burying 2 kids, the sister supposed to have one of the happiest days of her life is now forever stained with sadness, the kids never getting to know their fathers, the wives losing the love of their lives..
It's all just so unbelievably sad and senseless.
To add to this... due to the concert tonight they are moving but preserving the memorial and moving it from the stairs to teh grassy hill next to the stairs.
Another thing that I want to add that I couldn't find the words for until now...Yeah, I was having a hard time explaining to eloquently to my wife why I was bummed. Beyond hockey, it was a sad story. But as @Lunatik said, it's seeing someone grow up pass away. Add a lot of the extra facets to what we all know about the Gaudreaus and it is just adding layers of extra salt in the wounds (ie: Parents burying multiple children, planning a funeral at the same time as a wedding, the type of humble guy he was, the rage of a death associated with DUI etc.).
I think perhaps this is why so many of us hockey fans feel like we're so knocked over. There's more than one way to feel connected or reminded of something by this one event.
For me, I kinda just ended work early on Friday, walked away from social media and just spent time with my kids. They have no idea the relevance of what it means to smile with purple gato and skittles and there is no plan for me to post that pic online. We also did a bunch of other stuff over the long weekend. For me, it was an act of reflection and wrestling with my own mortality while also reminding myself to cherish every moment with my family. Things can happen to anyone at any time.
Glancing at social media again yesterday and today... it's still seems like it's all quite raw and unreal as it felt when the news was first released on Friday. The posts by the Gaudreau clan... damn. Especially the Matthew taking care of John one because they have each other. They're strong people and I think those posts are restarting the cycle. Further a reminder that they are amazing people who truly really didn't deserve this.
Guy Gaudreau's health is also of great concern to me now. Horrific thing to have to address for someone of his health situation.
Ugh. We just lost Snowy too. I think that adds to the hurt overflow with the Gaudreau news.