First, thanks for the work you've done in this thread. You've been a real help.
I'm so glad you mentioned the nerd thing. I ranted at my poor father last night for an hour about the band Dream Theater because I noticed something cool about one of their 24-minute songs. Afterwards, I thought to myself "man, what a nerd!" but I didn't feel bad because the album is dope and my observation was clever. (Maybe I'm on the right track!)
I will absolutely second the goodnight kiss thing! That's from experience. I've blown many dates that could have been more because I chickened out and didn't "seal the deal" physically. Now don't get me wrong, you definitely wanna be a gentleman and definitely NOT a creep, but you'll know when it's ok to advance. It's still scary and you gotta bite the bullet. That's one thing I would "change" but at the same time, it's the past. I prefer to think of it as working on it in the future.
This is exactly it. And it’s the only place where the real, machismo stereotype of confidence may help. It’s just having to be confident enough that you read the way things went and being able to bite the bullet and go for the kiss. Getting that goodnight kiss, even if it’s just a quick, cute peck shows you’re not friendzone material or whatever. It shows you have enough led in your pencil to make a move.
As for the nerd thing, man, like I said… I can’t count how many times I’ve called myself out for being a nerd, dork, geek, whatever. She read Witcher in the original Polish. I was like oh, that’s really cool. I played it on the original game of the year edition Same thing with music. On the first date I wouldn’t go to the whole “let me play you this 11 minute song so I can tell you to really pay attention for this one 15 second solo because it’s SOOOO good” but I will nerd out about music, hockey, food, beer, fantasy games, books and movies, tv and movies in general, you name it. Whatever ones she has in common with me, I’ll fully divulge my unabashed nerdiness.
And it works. It’s genuine. Sure, I’m an okay speaker, don’t get flustered, have a colorful vocabulary, can thread a decent story and have a decent enough sense of humor. But most people do when they’re comfortable! And that’s what I mean about SELF confidence. Just get comfortable being yourself. It does help to be able to come off as affable and easy going. But it also happens because I’m genuine and I’m okay with the idea that I might have to be a bit vulnerable in being authentic in order to do so. I’m not trying to come off as so affable while pretending to be into something I’m not. Or pretending to not be that into something I REALLY am. Don’t hide it. If you hid it, even if you were Mr. Smooth and got the second, third, twentieth date… what’s the point if that’s not a person you can be yourself around anyway? Unless you’re just trying to be the Hulk, which I get, in which case do you fam.