Sorry to hear, it`s tough for sure. I`ve lost both parents over the last 19 months. Spending some final time with Mum at Christmas of 2015 she told me to have some fun with what she and Dad left us, take that "woman of yours on a vacation to show those curves", even sick, she had a great sense of humor and it`s those things I remember about both when times like Birthday`s/Christmas have arrived.
So I took Mum`s advice, splurged big time and Mrs Odaat and I are off on a Sandals vacation staying at Sandals Ochi, Jamaica in March. Butler and all that fun stuff, over the top, never do it again but even with Mum gone, no way was I going to ignore her demands