I understand where you may be coming from.
I'm 47, born and raised here in SoCal. I started playing in PeeWee's up through Junior, house-league. Then Beer League off and on since I was 20. Right now I'm having fun, but don't really look forward to playing per say. Our team is full of great guys (most in the their late 30's and up), despite one hot-head. I kind of feel like I'm only playing to get my money's worth with recent new gear acquisitions. Might have to give the private pick-up I got in a more consistent go. League fees continue to climb ($480 here for 15 games plus two playoffs, guess that isn't too bad when you break it down per game,
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