Hello all. As you probably know I've been away for some time. I'd like to share some things....
When I left my struggles with my mental health were piling up, during the pandemic it worsened, as I lost my job, my home and it reached the point where I couldn't leave the house and didn't do so in over 2 years, and had difficulty doing daily self-care functions.
A year ago, my dad got sick and I had a complete breakdown, I spent 14 months on long-term disability unable to even do my job which is a work from home position. I underwent EMDR therapy for trauma while off work and after a gradual return to work, I am back to work full-time and feel the best mentally that I've felt in many years (maybe it's the handful of drugs I have to take every day too). This past week my recovery has been tested, as we found out last week that my dad is now terminal, and I didn't break again. So that's kinda why I'm back, sports are a positive thing for me and I don't feel like I'm spiraling, so I thought it was "safe" for me to return again.
I know I was an asshole before I left, my anxiety was causing a great deal of paranoia. I can't promise I still won't be an asshole sometimes, because I'm still going to be blunt, but I do think things will be different.
Also, if any of you are struggling, please get help. It can really make a.massive difference.
Thanks for your time.