Edge
Kris King's Ghost
just awful
Anything dealing with your children, both before and after they’re born, is so difficult to put into words.
I’d never believed in love at first sight until I saw my children in their first seconds of life. But I was in love immediately and knew that my heart would never fully be mine ever again.
I will admit that while you’re expecting, there was a certain weird defense I’d put up. You don’t want to get too excited, you know your heart is on the line, and you know that there are risks that can come out of nowhere. You try not to think about the future, but it does happen.
And anything involving your kids is a different kind of pain. It’s different than your parents or your siblings or your friends. It’s even different than your spouse.
I think that kind of pain will always be there. The magnitude fades with time, you do your best to pursue happiness in other areas of your life, but it never fully goes away. You’ll always wonder, at least a little. And your heart hurts knowing that someone is going through it.
Because it’s a different kind of pain.