Well, I did see her last night. At her work. Just going in as a customer. I avoided it ever since the fight. But why should I avoid it now if I wanna buy something to drink or get gas there? I was going there YEARS before she worked there, I can't stay in my house all day because I'm afraid to go somewhere where she might be. So I went in there and I acted like I normally with her when we first met. I acted like she was a stranger and asked if I could still get any size fountain drink slushy for a dollar. She gave me a ''Oh god'' look when I walked in and just answered me. So I filled my drink up, then got in line and I ended up with her. So I said to myself out loud ''Oh god, it's my luck that I get her!'' and then I told her ''You know I'm just kidding, right?''. And I told her to keep the change from my gas and drink and to do something with her hair (joking that it needed to be cut and that it didn't look good). She gave me the same look she would give me when I first started going in there, I think she knew I was joking. So I told her just to make sure ''You know I'm just kidding, or am I? Take a guess!''. And I walked away.
Now I know this sounds like a dick of me, but you have to understand, this is how I interacted with her before we started seeing each other. I playfully flirted with her, sometime hurling mild insults her way. The first real flirting between us was when I asked her ''Where's the cute one?'' when she rang me up. I was talking about her, but I didn't admit it then. She told me ''I'm right here''. And I laughed and told her she wasn't cute at all and that there way prettier girls that worked there (wasn't the truth from me, which she knew by my tone), then I told her she was just alright and left. One of the last encounters we had before we started seeing each other was when she announced in front of all of her co-workers when I came in one night. ''This guy thinks I'm just kind of cute and not really cute''. And I embarrassed her that night by saying to the other ones right in front of her ''Can you hire some better people here? This one really sucks. I can't stand her, she's not good looking enough, she thinks she's really hot, but she's not''. And during that encounter she said ''I think I saw you walking past my house the other night'' which was true, but I didn't know she lived there at the time. It's part of my route when I take walks sometimes. And I told her ''Yeah, I walk a lot, I'm in really good shape!'' and she laughed as if I wasn't (she was doing to me what I do to her). After that I spouted off a few random facts about myself and she said ''Why are you telling me all this stuff about yourself?'' and I told her because I could tell she wanted to hear about me. I acted like a cocky jerk in front of her, but she knew I was playing and just flirting with her.
She wound up telling me after we started seeing each other outside of her work that the other girls were like ''Wow! He's a jerk! He really hates you!'', but she told me that's when she knew that I really liked her and was heavily flirting with her. The next time I was in there, I figured I'd be a little nicer, so I walked into her line and said ''My dad just got a whole lot better!''. And then I went in one more time and that's when she told me ''I live on the corner of that street and if you see my car there, come to the door''. I hung out with her for like an hour while she worked, then I left and said ''Your hair looks really hot tonight.... Hot garbage''. And she called me a loser haha. This is how we got along. The first time we hung out, we stopped in the Dollar Store and I really gave her a hard time in line. Just playfully again. And the guy in front of us said ''Dude, I'm telling you, you're about to get hit! I've been married long enough to know!''. Haha he was warning me that she was about to hit me haha.
Dammit, I hate reliving that. I miss her. f***in sucks.