Howdy y'all. Yes, I do have major depressive disorder. But I'm actually doing pretty alright considering what I need to get off my chest, maybe some of you will feel me.
Everything sucks.
I mean, like...not one thing about life sucks. It's everything. And it has driven me nuts, but I've finally come to realize there's something not worth fighting. So you have to change your own outlook to fit your own needs.
1. Fast food - Once considered a saving grace for the working class. Cheap, disgusting calories for people who have to manage young families with very little time. It was worth it, then. But the prices have been jacked to the tits and places like McDonald's have given me less over time. Shrinkflation is real. f***in' don't even get me started on Tim's. What a disgrace. RUINED.
2. Careers - Generally, speaking. In my experience as a 'younger fellow', I've had 15 different jobs in 6 different fields. 3 of those jobs didn't completely demoralize me or make me feel lesser than and fulfilled me. 20% rate is shocking to me. I don't have much of a frame of reference, but can an older person with more but similar experiences give me one on that number?
In those jobs, I wasn't the only one who was disillusioned, either. And in the 3 jobs I liked, there were definitely people who didn't fit because they didn't have the right attitude. What I'm trying to tell you, is lots of people are basically unhappy with their jobs. Why would someone stay in an unhappy job, you might ask? Because it pays better, and as the cost of living escalates, people do this more and more. So society's mental health takes a collective nosedive. But, we'll get to that later. TL;DR it's RUINED.
3. Technology - Man, as an early 90s birth, my relationship with technology for someone outside that age swath would astonish you. And all my friends are the exact same way. A buddy and I went to the Sherwood game and almost couldn't get in because we're so f***ed with technological navigation. Basically, I figure, tech never interested me and all my computers classes were taught by boomers who basically were just learning along with us.
So my literacy in this subject is RUINED. And does it even matter? We're at the point where people are actively not even trying to play God, but play Icarus. f***in' VR games where you die IRL? You people are monsters. RUINED.
4. Housing - so bad I don't even feel the need to broach. RUINED.
5. Governance - I mean, Chip Wilson. Multi-billionaires...yes, with a B. These human scarecrows, are brazenly directing ICBMs at the lines in the sand perpetually drawn to keep business and political interests separate. The Grand Illusion of Control to the Masses (read: democracy) had already been RUINED, but the curtain keeping the lie at bay isn't even there anymore and no one cares. RUINED.
6. Social Aspect - No one trusts anyone anymore.
It's so obvious to me, that too many women see too many men as too much a threat. And honestly vice-versa, which is my thing to figure out. Like, the strangling and dystopian roots of the weed that is neocapitalism has even managed to writhe its way into having a f***ing social life. You can't have a personality, you have to have a 'brand'. Give me a break. I'm not out here selling myself. I am who I am, I'm not perfect but f***ing I'm trying, y'know? If you don't like me, shove off, then. Real recognize real, if you don't get it you never will.
We're stuck in that episode of the Twilight Zone. The one where everyone can read everyone else's thoughts and is slowly going mad. No one should be meant to wield that ability, because, no one can. You can't be able to do that and have empathy, it's incredibly draining. I'm not saying don't do it, I'm not saying I'm correct, but ...have you lost empathy for a massive amount of people lately? Correlation? Causation? I don't know. I'm just some monkey with a typewriter basically. That's what gives me joy out of all this.
Life is just so different now. Maybe I'm truly just out of touch with reality. I think I'm too in tune. Or I want to be. One thing I was told that's helped is it's going to basically going to be impossible to have the same life as my parents. I'd like to be them, but that's not the direction the river of life flows for me. Funny thing is, I had a eureka moment to this moment I had when I was like 7. So I'd figured that out quite early on, but just stubborn Scot blood just left me kicking at a dead horse.
I was never normal any way f*** it. But why does a rant need to read like a manifesto these days? f*** me. Thanks for the space gents