Anything Goes 42

I was married for a few years and got the big D. Stayed single for 15 or so years. It was what I needed...to learn to be happy myself and with myself as well as understand I was not the only problem. then I met who I am with now and we have been together 16 years. Learning about myself as a mature man was very important for me in my love of myself and development for future relationships. Just be patient and it will all happen in good time when it is right. But being unhappy with someone is like a prison.
 
I was on here earlier, my wife saw over my shoulder and said “are you letting them know too?” … (I wasn’t) but reality is I’ve known in an internet way some of you since the late 1990’s so here it goes.
Back story; at 13 I was stabbed in the stomach (just above) a piece of tube lines the bottom of my esophagus and a band holds it all in place.
At about age 25 I was diagnosed with Barrett’s esophagus which is a “precancer”.
Last Wednesday (8 days ago) I’m 62 now, I had an EGD. I have one every 2 years to check the Barrett’s.
By Wednesday evening I couldn’t swallow. We thought it was simply swelling. Fast forward, trip to Dr. they are convinced the band slipped and order a CT scan to verify.
The CT did its job but also revealed a 1 inch growth in the upper chamber of my right lung. Density, mass, shape pretty much assure it is lung cancer.
Having P.E.T. scan tomorrow which will give more info and also tell if it is anywhere else.

My wife (a retired RN) trying to be positive but factual says if it had to be it is in the best spot. The right side has 3 chambers. The left side only has 2 because your heart is in the way. So by getting it early even if they remove the whole chamber (a possibility) I likely wouldn’t notice unless exerting a lot of energy.

So now just waiting and hoping it’s localized.
Praying for you my man.
 
Being single after six years has been the hardest thing I think I’ve done. It’s all relative obviously I still have my parents. I have a good job, but it’s been really hard. I want to thank all of you guys for helping me get through it getting on here every day has made it easier to deal withso thank you

I get this completely. Especially being in my mid 30s. I was with someone for 7 years and it ended really bad in October of 23. Most of 24 I spent going down some dark paths and involving myself in self destructive situations. I reconnected with a woman I knew from years ago and we fell really hard for each other which I didn’t expect to happen for me again. Unfortunately circumstances in our lives pushed us apart romantically. But the time I spent with her was probably the most cherish able I’ve had with someone. Recency bias aside. Strange stage of life I feel.
 
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