I relapsed and am having a very disappointing time with myself. I don’t know where to vent seeing as I am as isolated as I ever been. I don’t expect anything out of this. It just feels liberating to be vulnerable and open about it and unfortunately for you all this was the first thing I could think of. Even though I am not very active and when I am I can be on one and seem like a total dick, but this is a constant in my life. I check this message board every damn day and it’s honestly comforting. I love seeing the banter, the arguments and especially when people come together and agree on things. I just want to say thank you to all of you who frequent here because there have been plenty of times I have been in a very dark place and somehow even for a second, I can forget about it when lurking and talking hockey with everyone.