All I can say is I am glad he’s still here and continues to get the help he needs to live a full, healthy live on and off the field.
“Jarren’s decision to share his story is an act of courage that reaches far beyond baseball,” Red Sox president Sam Kennedy said in a statement provided by the team.
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“I would think every day, ‘I can’t [expletive] do this,’ ” he said. “I couldn’t deal with telling myself how much I sucked every [expletive] day. Like I was already hearing it from fans and, like, what they say to me. It’s like, I haven’t told myself 10 times worse than that in the mirror. That was, like, a really tough time for me.
“It was a pretty low time for me. Like, I didn’t even wanna be here any more.”
Duran is then asked by an unseen filmmaker what he meant by that comment.
“I got to the point where I was sitting in my room; I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pulled the trigger and the gun clicked but nothing happened,” he said."