Reverend Mayhem
Lowly Serf/Reluctant Cuckold
^^ This.
I'm mentally ill. My anxiety is so bad that I struggle to leave the house, my depression is so bad that I struggle to do the most basic tasks to the point I'm worried that I'll get told I shouldn't be living alone. I'd wager that the vast majority are like me, where we don't even want to ask for help because we don't want to inconvenience others because we don't feel we're worth their time.
Hurting innocent people would probably be the one thing that drives me to suicide. It's the absolute last thing most of us want.
I'd wager that the vast majority mentally ill people that get violent, already had or would have had violent tendencies regardless.
Damn bro.
I've got bad depression/anxiety problems but not that bad. I think there's a difference between getting setting off and pre-meditated murder. I've had some bad bipolar episodes, but I've never considering harming anyone who has done nothing to me. It is how it is, clearly I was made this way for a reason, even it is just to test me.
It always pisses me off the whole "vaccines cause autism" thing. As if being autistic, or neurodivergent for that matter, guarantees a life of unhappiness. Most lives are unhappy, if you unravel them. It's the fleeting moments of serenity, of whatever that looks like for you, that make it worth it.