The losses ALWAYS suck worse & sting way longer than winning makes you feel good. It's not fair, it's just the way it is.
If you know all of this & you're still acting this intense, you've got other issues that you've been masking. You gotta find a good therapist. There's no shame in it.
I've been seeing a therapist over other shit but it's probably the bipolar which I got diagnosed with almost 15 years ago. I just don't know what I'll do with no sports.