Hey really sorry for your loss , it's a absolutely horrible thing to go through. Just looking at my last post, November 24th 2022 our Chance made it 1 week after i posted and we had to put her down, just a awful, awful thing to deal with. We went a entire year with no dog because it hurt too much and didn't want to go through that ever again. The house felt very empty for a very long time and then just this past December we saw a picture of a rescue from the Pas and went and got her .Never had a rescue before and she's a handful but wow it's great having a dog again, we named her Bella . Anyway i know what you are dealing with and it will get better for you eventually.