I've fallen off the wagon. Badly.
It's been a very hard summer. My mother in law has been failing health-wise, and finally passed away about a week and a half ago. My inlaws are a large Italian family, so it's been non-stop food and get together. We were actually on vacation when she passed, so took some time this week to try and have some kind of fun and relax a bit before going back to work. I've been so tired, mentally, emotionally, and physically, that is been a lot of laying around and I haven't had energy for anything. I haven't been eating well. I haven't been working out. In addition to my mother in law there have been some things going on with my own mother simultaneously that has just knocked me down. A friend of mine said she didn't understand how I wasn't in the looney bin after the last 10 days haha.
I've been having a pity party and have been beating myself up for letting myself go. All told, I'm up probably 10 lbs from my lowest weight last spring/summer (not just from the past week, it's slowly been creeping on since the end of marathon training), but the worst part is how lethargic I feel and how down I feel on myself. Lbs can come off, but the in your head stuff is harder. I thought I had moved on from emotional eating, at least made progress on that, but it turns out it's really easy to slide back to old habits.
I'm just kind of letting myself be where I am right now. Mostly because I feel lost and don't know what else to do, but also because if I go all out and start restricting food and making myself workout like crazy, it will be something I fail at and will send me even deeper into a tailspin.
I'm going back to work post-bereavement/vacation/vacation do-over on Friday, and I know getting back into a routine will help immensely. Once I'm back, I'm going to work on making a plan to set myself up for success and start making small changes again to get myself where I need to be. Getting back to working out, eating/cooking at home, and not eating every carb and sweet that crosses my path.
This **** is hard. Really, really, really hard. I'm incredibly envious of people that don't have food and body image issues. It's all-consuming and can be crippling and exhausting.
It hasn't been a great summer. Family stuff and being incredibly overscheduled has just worn me out emotionally, mentally, and physically. It doesn't help that my husband is an energizer bunny and could just go go go go go with no mind paid, so i also feel guilty about needong downtime that he doesn't need which adds to the mental and emotional drain.
The mental and emotional aspect of weight loss and exercise isn't talked about nearly enough, IMO. It's such a big part of the game.
I'm ready for fall, and I need an energy shift.
Give yourself a break,regroup and get back on the horse,maybe try to accept yourself, as is, a little more. I don't have body image issues,but I have legitimately serious health concerns and I fail a lot. Presently,I'm doing 24 hour fasts,on my 5th consecutive. I eat at 5PM and not again til 5 tomorrow,not for weight loss,but for glucose controil,insidious inflammation reduction and all the other health benefits of fasting. My goal is to do 20 this month,but I'll accept a failure or 2 and try again tomorrow,the war is not over.
I've been doing 14 hour fasts. No food between 9PM and 11AM. My situation isn't bad, it's just something I'm trying after reading a few things about the benefits of interment fasting. I've been a notorious late night snacker/eater and while it was hard at first, I've noticed some benefits. Getting up in the morning is easier, I sleep better, my weight doesn't yo-yo, etc etc.
Good luck with your situation... keep fighting!
Give yourself a break,regroup and get back on the horse,maybe try to accept yourself, as is, a little more. I don't have body image issues,but I have legitimately serious health concerns and I fail a lot. Presently,I'm doing 24 hour fasts,on my 5th consecutive. I eat at 5PM and not again til 5 tomorrow,not for weight loss,but for glucose controil,insidious inflammation reduction and all the other health benefits of fasting. My goal is to do 20 this month,but I'll accept a failure or 2 and try again tomorrow,the war is not over.
Giving myself a break and trying to Accept myself no matter where I'm at is absolutely what I need to do. I'm working on it, but man is it hard.
Hang in there with your health issues. I know how passionate you are, and how much knowledge you have. Amazing how much time and effort you put into educating yourself. Thanks for always being willing to share.
There is anecdotal evidence of tremendous benefits of fasting. Duration is argued, Fasting has been linked to shrinking tumors (essentially starving them) reversing coronary plaque,reversing brain plaque,resting the digestive system,resetting the entire nervous system,shortening flu and colds etc. We're an overindulgent culture,fasting for spiritual or health reasons is a good thing. I'd love to attempt a 30 day water fast.........
All about balance so I'm against fasting
Body needs to know what's coming
High fiber to starch carbs
Protein
Moderation is key
I dated a woman who was a nutritionist in college and we made a pact you teach me about nutrition and I'll teach you how to olease a man
I had Dr. Caldwell Esselstyn (author of Reversing Heart Disease) at the Cleveland Clinic tell me that "Moderation Kills". 6 months later my chest was cut open.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnJTwUkl75I
By moderation I mean if I stop at DQ today I will get a medium Mudpie Blizzard not a large
There is anecdotal evidence of tremendous benefits of fasting. Duration is argued, Fasting has been linked to shrinking tumors (essentially starving them) reversing coronary plaque,reversing brain plaque,resting the digestive system,resetting the entire nervous system,shortening flu and colds etc. We're an overindulgent culture,fasting for spiritual or health reasons is a good thing. I'd love to attempt a 30 day water fast.........
I would love to try the 30 day water fast.
I always wanted to get on one of those survivor type shows, just for that reason.
But being around food all the time, it would never happen here. Id have to quitmy job and build houses for a living. Then I could see myself just living on water for a month.
I wouldn't do it unless I was being supervised,and they do have fasting centers in the US,with remarkable results for all kinds of ailments. Basically,the body is equipped to heal,and we get in the way with all kinds of drugs and faulty diets etc.