I honestly wonder when it was that you turned from a reasonable, good person into a raving lunatic who tried to fit in with a certain group of posters. I really can't figure out exactly when it was but I know a lot of people here noticed it.
And you really don't fit in, you look like a copycat poseur. It's genuinely embarrassing.
I think when people randomly start acting the way you have, when it doesn't make any sense at all, that it reveals some sort of profound unhappiness.
I feel bad for you.