After injuring his shoulder in a 4 Nations Face-Off game against Finland, McAvoy eventually ended up in Mass General to treat a staph infection
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Amid the somber, funereal atmosphere of the Bruins dressing room on Thursday, their season ended without a trip to the playoffs, veteran defenseman Charlie McAvoy made clear the emotional whipsaw he has endured over the two months since his 4 Nations Face-Off misfortunes in February.
Overall, McAvoy is pain-free these days, assured and encouraged he will return for September training camp with his damaged shoulder in full operating order, and eager to be one of the “pillars” to help deliver the Black and Gold to better days.
Nonetheless, the 27-year-old backliner made clear via his words and body language that the emotional roller-coaster ride and profound disappointment of the last 10 weeks has extracted a physical and psychological price.
“I don’t even feel like I played hockey this year,” said McAvoy, whose troubles cascaded in the aftermath of the 4 Nations tournament. “At times it has felt like that was last season — something separate in my head — because it’s been so long.”
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his shoulder was wrecked in a Feb. 13 tournament game against Finland — an injury that McAvoy revealed was a Grade 5 AC separation — he was injected with a drug to “numb” the pain prior to Team USA’s next game in Montreal against archrival Team Canada.
Less than 48 hours after helping back a thrilling Team USA win on Feb. 15, McAvoy entered Massachusetts General Hospital with a “rare” staph infection radiating excruciating pain in the shoulder. It turned into a three-day stay aimed at eradicating the infection and repairing the severely damaged AC.
“Mentally, emotionally, physically, I’ve gone through so much, because of that damn experience,” said McAvoy, pausing as he deliberately chose his words. “Like, it cost me my season. It cost me my sanity in a lot of ways, like, none of this has been easy. I get emotional when I talk about it. Look, yeah, it was an incredible experience and I waited my whole life to be part of something like that … but the way that it ended, and the aftermath of it, and what I had to go through, it cost me a lot more than I was willing to give. And that’s unfortunate.”
As McAvoy spoke, surrounded by a gaggle of reporters, photographers, and videographers at Warrior Arena in Brighton, a tone of anger was readily apparent in his voice.
When asked about it, he acknowledged the anger was part of his myriad emotions attached to the situation and noted it was not directed at an individual.
“I feel about every emotion you can have,” said the ex-Boston University standout, now with eight years of NHL service. “I’m not angry at any one individual. I’m angry about what happened. I’m sad about what happened, a little of the ‘Why me?’ ... as I am sure anyone would ask with what happened. So it’s a lot of different emotions. I wouldn’t say it’s just angry.
“I’m certainly not angry at individuals or anything. It’s just anger over the situation — it cost me my season. It cost me a lot. I’ve spent a lot of time, emotionally, just sitting with it because that was the reality of it. I am sitting at home with my PICC line [to treat the infection] and this and that, I can’t play and I can’t help my team. Like I said, it was like a whole other season. I can’t even remember anything before that, honestly, because I only remember what the last two months have felt like and it just hasn’t been fun.”
The source of the infection, widely speculated in the media to be connected to the pain-numbing injection, remains unknown, according to McAvoy.
“I had a rare staph infection that could have been introduced in a couple of different ways,” he said. “Obviously, it was documented that we did an injection to try and numb it. That’s not unfamiliar. It’s something all teams do and something doctors are comfortable doing. What happened to me was simply bad luck. There’s always a risk of that happening, but you don’t ever hear about it. And it happened to me. So if you want to talk about the perfect storm, and the ‘Why me?’ ... it’s not necessarily that anyone did anything wrong.”
McAvoy dismissed a reporter’s question about whether it was the needle itself that introduced the infection.
“It could have been my Under Armour, or my gear, or this or that, even the pillow at the hotel,” he mused. “It could have been anything. That’s why there’s no ill-will with anybody involved. And guess what, we can sit here and talk about it and the head of infectious diseases at
Mass. General doesn’t know how it happened. So we can speculate all day, and trust me, I have. You think I don’t want to blame somebody for this? I’ve spent that time and I’ve shed those tears and the reality is, there’s no one to blame. It’s just bad luck.”
McAvoy, his shoulder to this day not game-ready, returned to skating a few weeks ago. Had the club’s playoff chances come down to having to win the final three or four games, he noted, there would have been “a serious discussion” about his availability to play. He would have his hand up, but the call ultimately would have been left for the club’s medical staff to make. He only came off antibiotics last week.