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It is very very hard. they are our babies. If anything, know that we are here for you.

We were just crying looking at Wrigley's bed. we left everything the same for now. Eventually we will move on a few things but he was 6mo when we moved to Tucson. We see him everywhere here. I guess it hurts forever and in my mind......I would have it no other way as he gave us everything. Everything. I don't want to forget one moment and that makes me cry so be it. One day I hope my heart comes together again.

I suspect you are feeling the same?
I started giving things away like the ridiculous amount of food and treats and discarding other things two days after burying him. Couldn’t really stand the sight of a lot of it. It was that or go on vacation for me. I even bought a new sofa. I don’t want to forget anything either but I wasn’t doing well constantly being reminded of his passing. Everyone grieves a bit differently I’d say but I am feeling the same.
 
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To be fair to my friends I actually have to say no more to them. I can’t blame them for trying because I’ve pretty much conditioned them into knowing I’ll be there if they press.

I feel you. My dog just passed too days after yours. He was 13 and cheasapeakes don’t usually live nearly that long but that didn’t make it much easier. Was outside with me running around that morning and by 4 pm it was pretty clear to me he was likely dying.
You do not have to be fair to anyone but yourself. I got sober through AA and NA. Anyone who gets in the way of that isn't a friend. Here if you want to talk or need guidance that isn't me.

Substance abuse is f***ing brutal my guy. I couldn't do it by myself. I was blessed with a goddess who repeatedly told me how weak she felt for loving my addict self. She was the single greatest thing that ever happened to me.
 
I was on here earlier, my wife saw over my shoulder and said “are you letting them know too?” … (I wasn’t) but reality is I’ve known in an internet way some of you since the late 1990’s so here it goes.
Back story; at 13 I was stabbed in the stomach (just above) a piece of tube lines the bottom of my esophagus and a band holds it all in place.
At about age 25 I was diagnosed with Barrett’s esophagus which is a “precancer”.
Last Wednesday (8 days ago) I’m 62 now, I had an EGD. I have one every 2 years to check the Barrett’s.
By Wednesday evening I couldn’t swallow. We thought it was simply swelling. Fast forward, trip to Dr. they are convinced the band slipped and order a CT scan to verify.
The CT did its job but also revealed a 1 inch growth in the upper chamber of my right lung. Density, mass, shape pretty much assure it is lung cancer.
Having P.E.T. scan tomorrow which will give more info and also tell if it is anywhere else.

My wife (a retired RN) trying to be positive but factual says if it had to be it is in the best spot. The right side has 3 chambers. The left side only has 2 because your heart is in the way. So by getting it early even if they remove the whole chamber (a possibility) I likely wouldn’t notice unless exerting a lot of energy.

So now just waiting and hoping it’s localized.
Figured I’d update this. Things seemed to get a lot worse and then changed back.
The PET scan showed raised nodules in both my liver and spleen. The cancer had metastasized. The oncologist here and at Moffet cancer center (Tampa) said I should expect to live about 2 years using chemotherapy to last that long.
But both suggested a separate MRI of just Liver and Spleen to verify.
Well, the marks they saw are NOT cancer! They are attributed to likely be old sports injuries (hockey sticks? Football helmets).
I am likely the only person you know who has lung cancer and is happy about it.
I will have 4 rounds of chemo (3 more) and then surgery to remove what is left and they all predict if it goes as planned I’ll be in remission.

I have learned that if you have cancer in a vital organ it’s in the blood so the proper term is remission (none detected) but you don’t say cancer free. Though they tell me if this works as they hope any return (statistically) is at least 5 and possibly 10 or more years away and with regular exams I should have a relatively normal life expectancy.

BIG RELIEF!
 
Figured I’d update this. Things seemed to get a lot worse and then changed back.
The PET scan showed raised nodules in both my liver and spleen. The cancer had metastasized. The oncologist here and at Moffet cancer center (Tampa) said I should expect to live about 2 years using chemotherapy to last that long.
But both suggested a separate MRI of just Liver and Spleen to verify.
Well, the marks they saw are NOT cancer! They are attributed to likely be old sports injuries (hockey sticks? Football helmets).
I am likely the only person you know who has lung cancer and is happy about it.
I will have 4 rounds of chemo (3 more) and then surgery to remove what is left and they all predict if it goes as planned I’ll be in remission.

I have learned that if you have cancer in a vital organ it’s in the blood so the proper term is remission (none detected) but you don’t say cancer free. Though they tell me if this works as they hope any return (statistically) is at least 5 and possibly 10 or more years away and with regular exams I should have a relatively normal life expectancy.

BIG RELIEF!
Great news, SU. Here's hoping we get you for another decade plus.
 
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