Now that I'm 35, I'm doing what 35 years old do and watching long ass documentaries about WWI and WWII. I knew how bad those wars were. I read above and beyond what most of my peers did. But my lord, it was so much worse than even imaginable. I now find it 20 times worse than I could have even imagined 3 months ago, and is probably 20 times worse than I can imagine now.
Also shocked by how absolutely little the emperor of Japan during that time frame did. he was worse than "merely a figurehead." I'm pretty certain I did more in WWII and I wasn't even born for another 50+ years