Living With Anxiety And Depression

[Hockeyholic]

At this point I hope and pray it will get better. Some days are better then others. Has anyone else experienced with this disease? How did you come around? Or maybe you know someone suffering.

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[Club]

I legit suffer with anxiety everyday. it gets to be a lot.

I've battled depression and I wouldn't even want my worst enemy to go through that, but I hope you get through your fight and just know there's hope. I'm always an ear if you need to talk!

 

[PALE PWNR]

Anxiety is something I've dealt with still deal with. I acknowledge that it is a part of me and actively try to block it out when I feel anxious about something. I put myself in positions to commit to something that makes me anxious and follow through. Its very relieving when you do, but its still something that I have to actively acknowledge and wrestle with. I have lengthy periods of time where I just turn everything off and stay comfortable, but I also have lengthy periods of time where I put myself out there and continue to do so over and over and it gets easier and easier.

 

[Hockeyholic]

Sometimes the hardest part for me is I want to be a kid again. Meaning I miss having fun and not needing to worry about jobs, money, school etc. I remember how good it was and compare it to now. It's definitely not easy. I guess we all grow up eventually.

As to the poster above, I certainly wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy either. The scary part is thinking there is no hope. Reason being all the medication, therapy in the world has YET to make a difference.

Furthermore, it does more than just affect the mood. It legit affects relationships etc.

 

[Fantomas]

Sometimes the hardest part for me is I want to be a kid again. Meaning I miss having fun and not needing to worry about jobs, money, school etc. I remember how good it was and compare it to now. It's definitely not easy. I guess we all grow up eventually.

As to the poster above, I certainly wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy either. The scary part is thinking there is no hope. Reason being all the medication, therapy in the world has YET to make a difference.

Furthermore, it does more than just affect the mood. It legit affects relationships etc.

On the bright side of things, you live in a great country and your life is much more stress-free than if you were to live in the US or almost anywhere else in the world.

Good healthcare, government-regulated student loans, low crime. If that helps.

 

[Goonzilla]

Sometimes the hardest part for me is I want to be a kid again. Meaning I miss having fun and not needing to worry about jobs, money, school etc. I remember how good it was and compare it to now. It's definitely not easy. I guess we all grow up eventually.

As to the poster above, I certainly wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy either. The scary part is thinking there is no hope. Reason being all the medication, therapy in the world has YET to make a difference.

Furthermore, it does more than just affect the mood. It legit affects relationships etc.

Dude, I'm a kid in my early forties who spends half my time working hard and stressing about the same stuff and the other half goofing off. Without that balance I'd be a basket case. There's a time for work and a time for play and if you can get that balance right your problems are or seem less. Too much of one or the other at the expense of the other is a recipe for disaster.

I love the high demand and stress in the workplace, with comes with periods of anxiety and some real downers; actually I don't probably like it at all, but the release of that when you've nailed something big, finished or completed something and come out the other side is something else.

There are certain realities you need to face about growing up, but as long as you've got your own play stuff going on and some time for your own things that reward yourself I manage to manage okay.

..then there's hockey or skating; cures all that ails, temporarily at least. No work, wives, kids, bills, clients, idiot drivers, etc.

 

[Neutrinos]

You may find that psychedelics are quite therapeutic and help put things in perspective

There are lots of videos about it on YouTube

 

[VoluntaryDom]

that sucks

 

[Hockeyholic]

Everything said above makes sense. Bottom line is its definitely more of a struggle for some than others. I try to keep positive people in my life. Eliminate negativity. Luckily the financial vampires are long gone.

 

[MattMartin]

Really been bad past few days. I also suffer from agoraphobia which makes it real hard 2 find work.

 

[John Price]

imagine being so insecure about the perception of other people on the internet who will not believe that you are drunk that you have to type awfully on purpose in an effort to gain their trust and acceptance - especially when nobody who is drunk types like that unless they are drunk to the point that they can't even assimilate reality properly

 

[VoluntaryDom]

I have crippling depression

 

[VoluntaryDom]

I have osteoporosis.

 

[Bumpus]

imagine being so insecure about the perception of other people on the internet who will not believe that you are drunk that you have to type awfully on purpose in an effort to gain their trust and acceptance - especially when nobody who is drunk types like that unless they are drunk to the point that they can't even assimilate reality properly

Pash me a beer.

*hiccup*

 

[These Are The Days]

I've had them both real bad through the years. Some days I'm fine and others like yesterday it's damn near sit in a corner, tuck your knees into your chest and rock until you feel better.

I've discovered that one of the better methods of dealing is to ask "Is this level of suffering making me happy?" Now I am acutely aware of how dangerous that question is because the mind running free is a dangerous thing. But once you ask the question you then arrive to obvious answer of "No it's not I'm ****ing miserable! MAKE. IT. STOP!!!!" Now that you've readily identified how unhappy you currently are you "Say if I do nothing about it now this will continue" Now if you can get that far, repeat as necessary until you eventually achieve the mindset of "Enough is enough" and for the next few minutes you shift focus on an actual goal that will make you happy or at least channel that negative energy. If your day is not free then take the time to find out what that happy thing is going to be. Make yourself happy at least once a day and make it realistic. If you say, "I WANT HER TO LOVE ME AND NOTHING ELSE WILL DO!!" or "I WANT COLLEGE TO END NOW" or "I'LL BE HAPPY IF I LEAVE MY JOB GRRR!!" is completely useless. I'm talking about ACTUAL and attainable goals.

A nap goes a long way. A favorite meal (if you can get it) helps too. Music is essentially free on the internet and so too is just about every movie ever made if you know where to look. A walk outside or picking up that old guitar you never use is free. So too is writing out everything you feel on a piece of paper. These things are often hard to enjoy or even accomplish when you're stuck in the hole but after process of elimination you'll eventually find a distraction and feel less miserable.

Every case is different but I got to the point of where I could enact my suicide plan at any given moment. Eventually one day about 10 years ago as I was laying on the bathroom floor at work a crying, heaping mess (cuz those radical feels were getting too much) I was ready to do it as soon as I got home. But something in me snapped and said to myself, "I'm so ****ing tired of this. I hate you! I hate you!! I'm not living like this anymore." and I got up and said, "No one knows who I am. And neither do you. I have nothing to lose anymore."

Once it dawned on me that I had nothing to lose by being myself I immediately started excelling more at my job, I made probably 50+ friends at college and have not been outside of some sort of meaningful relationship since 2009

The freest thing you can do is to be yourself. It often achieves results

In those of us with anxiety and depression we have to realize that we are often the biggest thing holding ourselves back. There must be a realization that we too can be happy once we get out of our own way. We sabotage ourselves emotionally, mentally and physically. If we hold our hands away from the fire for a few minutes it won't burn anymore. You just start with one thing... ONE thing that makes you feel better. I don't care if you have to go as far as "alone time" (mods clean that up if I'm going too far) but the slave does not escape without a plan to remove his bondage.

We're gonna be unhappy and anxious literally no matter what we do. So that means every day is the perfect day do begin the rest of our lives.

Final note: DO NOT DO DRUGS!!!!! If the hole was bad before then you'll never get out. I have never partaken myself because I've watched it destroy the lives of hundreds of people I had come to know personally at one point or another through the healthcare business.

If you are currently addicted to drugs and have terrible anxiety and depression then your entire life goal needs to be to get off. Seriously... get the hell off HFBoards right now and click onto a rehab page. You can use them to help all you want but eventually the drugs turn against you.

 

[dogbazinho]

Get a dog. I don't think the depression some describe here but my work is very stressful and sometimes my home life too and when I come home all I have to be greeted by the guy in my avatar and that vanishes.

I do have a fair bit of social anxiety which I think working from home for 10 years contributed to. If you let yourself form habits around seclusion you'll never get better.

 

[Hockeyholic]

I've had them both real bad through the years. Some days I'm fine and others like yesterday it's damn near sit in a corner, tuck your knees into your chest and rock until you feel better.

I've discovered that one of the better methods of dealing is to ask "Is this level of suffering making me happy?" Now I am acutely aware of how dangerous that question is because the mind running free is a dangerous thing. But once you ask the question you then arrive to obvious answer of "No it's not I'm ****ing miserable! MAKE. IT. STOP!!!!" Now that you've readily identified how unhappy you currently are you "Say if I do nothing about it now this will continue" Now if you can get that far, repeat as necessary until you eventually achieve the mindset of "Enough is enough" and for the next few minutes you shift focus on an actual goal that will make you happy or at least channel that negative energy. If your day is not free then take the time to find out what that happy thing is going to be. Make yourself happy at least once a day and make it realistic. If you say, "I WANT HER TO LOVE ME AND NOTHING ELSE WILL DO!!" or "I WANT COLLEGE TO END NOW" or "I'LL BE HAPPY IF I LEAVE MY JOB GRRR!!" is completely useless. I'm talking about ACTUAL and attainable goals.

A nap goes a long way. A favorite meal (if you can get it) helps too. Music is essentially free on the internet and so too is just about every movie ever made if you know where to look. A walk outside or picking up that old guitar you never use is free. So too is writing out everything you feel on a piece of paper. These things are often hard to enjoy or even accomplish when you're stuck in the hole but after process of elimination you'll eventually find a distraction and feel less miserable.

Every case is different but I got to the point of where I could enact my suicide plan at any given moment. Eventually one day about 10 years ago as I was laying on the bathroom floor at work a crying, heaping mess (cuz those radical feels were getting too much) I was ready to do it as soon as I got home. But something in me snapped and said to myself, "I'm so ****ing tired of this. I hate you! I hate you!! I'm not living like this anymore." and I got up and said, "No one knows who I am. And neither do you. I have nothing to lose anymore."

Once it dawned on me that I had nothing to lose by being myself I immediately started excelling more at my job, I made probably 50+ friends at college and have not been outside of some sort of meaningful relationship since 2009

The freest thing you can do is to be yourself. It often achieves results

In those of us with anxiety and depression we have to realize that we are often the biggest thing holding ourselves back. There must be a realization that we too can be happy once we get out of our own way. We sabotage ourselves emotionally, mentally and physically. If we hold our hands away from the fire for a few minutes it won't burn anymore. You just start with one thing... ONE thing that makes you feel better. I don't care if you have to go as far as "alone time" (mods clean that up if I'm going too far) but the slave does not escape without a plan to remove his bondage.

We're gonna be unhappy and anxious literally no matter what we do. So that means every day is the perfect day do begin the rest of our lives.

Final note: DO NOT DO DRUGS!!!!! If the hole was bad before then you'll never get out. I have never partaken myself because I've watched it destroy the lives of hundreds of people I had come to know personally at one point or another through the healthcare business.

If you are currently addicted to drugs and have terrible anxiety and depression then your entire life goal needs to be to get off. Seriously... get the hell off HFBoards right now and click onto a rehab page. You can use them to help all you want but eventually the drugs turn against you.

First off, I commend you for relaying such powerful and insightful information. That couldn't of been easy for you. So cheers to that!!

Secondly, I have gotten help in terms of medication and some counselling. Now to be frank, counselling can be hit or miss. Totally depends upon the Dr. I try my best to write down worst case scenarios and how I'll " Survive" them. An example being me cutting the cord with that bum friend. What am I losing ( Besides cash) without it in my life? The answer is nothing. That's the reality. Yet my mind tells me I'm missing out on losing a great buddy. I'm trying to get my mind where it should be.

I drank a bit too much Thursday. Although it was my first time in months.....it wasn't worth it. Thus, I know alcohol nor drugs ( Never tried them) are an option.

I do have friends that care. It's a matter of prioritizing who is good and whose bad for me.

I commend you!!!

 

[These Are The Days]

First off, I commend you for relaying such powerful and insightful information. That couldn't of been easy for you. So cheers to that!!

Secondly, I have gotten help in terms of medication and some counselling. Now to be frank, counselling can be hit or miss. Totally depends upon the Dr. I try my best to write down worst case scenarios and how I'll " Survive" them. An example being me cutting the cord with that bum friend. What am I losing ( Besides cash) without it in my life? The answer is nothing. That's the reality. Yet my mind tells me I'm missing out on losing a great buddy. I'm trying to get my mind where it should be.

I drank a bit too much Thursday. Although it was my first time in months.....it wasn't worth it. Thus, I know alcohol nor drugs ( Never tried them) are an option.

I do have friends that care. It's a matter of prioritizing who is good and whose bad for me.

I commend you!!!

Keep up the good fight. Counseling does help. I never looked as far as support groups but I am certain they are there in your community. I think you've well learned to never give up. Always put your faith in yourself, the fact that you too can be healed and faith in the fact that you are worthy. It's hard to tie religion into such a broad conversation (since religion depends on the individual) but it's helped me a lot. When I'm at my worst I open up the bible and remember, "Hey man... you've got the big cheese on your side. The worst possible thing that can happen to you is that you die. Being born again, you have paradise awaiting you. Don't be scared okay?"

The most haunting fact of all this is that if we could somehow quantify anxiety/depression and put it on a scale of 0-10 (10 being the highest) I know for sure that the worst I ever got might've been about a 4 or 5 with depression being the bulk of might fight. Everything I said is easy if you have the coping skills and God knows the people who go to "7 and beyond" levels of anxiety/depression do not have those skills. Thus why things got so bad to begin with. The day I had recently was rare. I'm blessed to say that rarely do my anxiety attacks get that bad anymore. That'll definitely be my worst for the rest of this year and possibly next year. Yet I can only imagine living with it at that level every day.

Good on you for getting help. I can't say it enough.

Hopefully this thread becomes like a safe haven to those who need it.

 

[Goonzilla]

Drugs are bad, but a little booze is okay occasionally, as long as it's not a necessity.

 

[M.C.G. 31]

At this point I hope and pray it will get better. Some days are better then others. Has anyone else experienced with this disease? How did you come around? Or maybe you know someone suffering.

It took a year and a half, crippling anxiety and suicidal thoughts before I finally sought help and turned around.

It started at 16 and went to 19 until I dropped out of school, cleared my mind, had no pressure on me and got help. Before that, though? Anxiety to the point where I couldn't leave the house for days at a time, insomnia leading to thoughts of me killing myself on the spot because I felt I was more of a burden on others because of my issues.

It takes time, patience and actually seeking help. Sometimes the depression still creeps in, but at least I can live life normally and actually go places these days. You may need pills if talk therapy doesn't help, but anything is better than sitting in your room all hours of the day with little sleep and feeling helpless. It gets better. It just takes time and seeking help.

 

[John Price]

get well

 

[Neutrinos]

At this point I hope and pray it will get better. Some days are better then others. Has anyone else experienced with this disease? How did you come around? Or maybe you know someone suffering.

There are more proactive steps one can take to improve mental health

Step 1 is diet and exercise

Eat healthy and do something physical for at least an hour each day

 

[AnAceOfKidneys]

so many times I here the previous generation complain about the next one...YOU GUYS SUCK!!!...worst generation in 150m years, young count's

 

[Hockeyholic]

I stupidly drank last night. I now know that isn't for me in my current state. I can't live that way. Even one glass is too much.