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Interview with Lias in DN in Sweden. Google translated.
”Jag har slagit sönder speglar, lampor och papperskorgar” - DN.SE
"I have broken mirrors, lamps and trash cans"
PUBLISHED 06:40
HV71's Lias Andersson tells in an interview with DN about how his bad mood made the situation in New York unbearable for him.
HV71's Lias Andersson tells in an interview with DN about how his bad mood made the situation in New York unbearable for him. Photo: Thomas Karlsson
JÖNKÖPING. What do you do when reality does not live up to the dream?
When the fear of failure makes simplicity difficult and the joy is gone.
21-year-old Lias Andersson packed his hockey trunk and left New York.
- I ended up in a vicious spiral that I had to break, he says.
Photographer Karlsson has decided to capture a happy Lias Andersson in a picture. It does not take long before he has secured a large number of such. Between each exercise on the training, the 21-year-old walks around with a smile on his face.
But as you know, it can swing quickly in hockey.
At the end of the training, you suddenly hear the sound of a booth door being slammed shut with an angry force. This is Lias Andersson's way of saying that he was not happy with his own efforts in the last change.
- I have a mood that reminds me sometimes. I've had that since I started playing, says Lias with a crooked smile when we ask him after training about the anger against the booth door.
- For the most part, it has been an asset that I am as passionate as I am about hockey. But of course there were times when I was younger - to be honest, there are still moments like that - when the cup overflowed.
In Jönköping, Lias Andersson has found his way back to the joy of hockey.
In Jönköping, Lias Andersson has found his way back to the joy of hockey. Photo: Thomas Karlsson
What did you do?
- Oh, that was a lot, is Lia's spontaneous answer.
- Separately, it was not really that big stuff, but I did a lot of stupid things. I have smashed lamps, mirrors, trash cans and of course a bunch of clubs. In addition, I could completely unnecessarily quarrel with judges and opponents.
- Today I think I'm better at using anger in the right way, not like a few years ago when I could incur unnecessary expulsions. Now I try to use it as a lighter fluid both for myself and the team, and avoid it putting us in the shit.
For those of us who also wrote about your father Niklas (15 seasons in Frölunda and 10 seasons in the NHL / AHL), he appeared to be the world's calmest player. Did he fool us or do you have two completely different moods?
- Yes, he cheated a little. It burns quite well in him too, says Lias and laughs.
- On the other hand, he was much better than I am at showing off a "stone face". This is where I also want to reach.
The training is over and 21-year-old Lias Andersson loads the plate full of rag donut and pork, which is today's lunch.
- I think it's fun with food, he says.
- Not in the way that I myself am a particularly good chef, even though I try to get better, but I like to try new dishes and try new restaurants.
We are sitting in the lunch restaurant in HV71's home arena Husqvarna Garden.
It was to Jönköping that Lias Andersson moved as a teenager when he left his parents' home in Kungälv to start hockey high school. And that was where he returned when his time in the New York Rangers came to an abrupt end.
- In HV, I feel safe. Here they know me inside and out. Although home will always be where the family lives, Jönköping feels like my second home.
21-year-old Lias Andersson believes that he ended up in a vicious circle in the USA. Bad mood led to sleep problems and poorer performance on the ice.
21-year-old Lias Andersson believes that he ended up in a vicious circle in the USA. Bad mood led to sleep problems and poorer performance on the ice. Photo: Thomas Karlsson
In his old club, the 21-year-old has been allowed to land softly. Something that was needed after a tough time in New York.
- Because I did not feel good outside the hockey field, I did not get what I wanted on the field at all, says Lias Andersson about the last months in New York.
I no longer even thought it was super fun to play hockey, and then it was time to research myself. Because even though hockey is incredibly important to me, I also want to feel good as a person.
The 21-year-old ended up - as he calls it - in a vicious spiral that made him unable to perform on the ice because he did not feel well outside. And when he could not perform on the ice, it made him feel worse outside.
When it was at its worst, he had difficulty sleeping, which of course made it even harder to play good hockey in the world's best league.
- In the past, I have usually, no matter where I have been, had a fairly large role in the team with the task of delivering and performing. When you feel that you are no longer delivering but start making simple mistakes both in training and in matches that you have never done before, and can barely even cope with the basics like putting a pass right, it's tough.
- Then you start to doubt yourself, and then you are affected both as a player and as a person.
- I no longer even thought it was super fun to play hockey, and then it was time to research myself. Because even though hockey is incredibly important to me, I also want to feel good as a person.
Lias Andersson made his debut for the New York Rangers in March 2018, and became a goal scorer already in the premiere.
Lias Andersson made his debut for the New York Rangers in March 2018, and became a goal scorer already in the premiere. Photo: Kostas Lymperopoulos / TT
For a long time he wrestled with his mind on his own.
- From the beginning, I did not talk to anyone about it, even though both the family and the agents obviously suspected that something was wrong.
- It was like something that was gnawing at my head all the time, but at the same time something that was difficult to explain.
In the middle of it all, Lias was injured, and when he was moved down to Rangers' grandfather team Hartford Wolf Pack in November last year, he did not join the team within the stipulated 24 hours. As a result, Rangers fired him without pay.
Lias had reached a limit when it was no longer possible to remain silent about how he was feeling.
- I am a very impulsive person, and have previously made quite impulsive decisions, so when I said I wanted to go home, the first thought of everyone around me was "now he has something for himself again", says Lias with a smile .
- However, they quickly realized that it was both seriously meant and well thought out, and both family and friends supported me in a fantastic way. Not to mention my agents who did a great job. So I have many to thank for feeling as good as I do today.
Lias continues with a determined voice:
- And I really want to emphasize that I went home had nothing to do with the fact that I did not want to play in the grandfather league. I felt almost worse when I was in the NHL than when I was there.
On Saturday 19 September, Lias Andersson will face his former club Frölunda in the SHL premiere.
On Saturday 19 September, Lias Andersson will face his former club Frölunda in the SHL premiere. Photo: Thomas Karlsson
In the months since you left home, have you regretted your decision?
- No, I have not done that, but I can say that I am sorry that it turned out the way it did. You do not want to put any club or association in the shit.
Back home in Sweden, he had no thoughts of making a comeback on the ice in the near future, but when he got the chance to play for HV71 in January, he felt ready.
With the pandemic, the season was short, already on March 15 it was over.
What would happen this season was a question mark for a long time, but when the New York Rangers agreed to loan him out, Lias knew he wanted to stay in HV.
- When I had turned everything around, I came to the conclusion that what I need most of all now is continuity in both hockey and everyday life. I get that here, says Lias.
The contract with Rangers expires after this season, and what happens then is not something that Lias wants to talk about. For the first time during our conversation, he is silent for a while before saying:
- Sometimes it feels like many people forget that I am only 21 years old and that I still learn things both as a player and as a person.
- I have realized that it does not work to go around on the ice and think that I should "show myself" to play for a contract next season. Therefore, I have let go of the thoughts of what will happen in the future and focus on doing the best I can this season.
“When I had turned everything around, I came to the conclusion that what I need most of all now is continuity in both hockey and everyday life. I get that here ”, says Lias Andersson about life in HV71.
“When I had turned everything around, I came to the conclusion that what I need most of all now is continuity in both hockey and everyday life. I get that here ”, says Lias Andersson about life in HV71. Photo: Thomas Karlsson
It's a special SHL season that kicks off on Saturday. The corona virus causes it to start in front of empty stands.
HV71 has a large and loyal home crowd, and the pressure in the arena is high class.
- Usually we get that extra ride from the audience, many times it really feels like we are a player more when the audience takes in. Now it is up to us players to give each other that ride on those days when you are a little unfocused, says Lias.
- So far, I think we have done very well. We are on top of each other in training, and compete against each other.
It is when we talk about the importance of the audience that the conversation takes a new turn and begins to be about football.
Several of the football hallsvenskan's large audience teams have had a difficult season. Among them is Lias Andersson's favorite team IFK Gothenburg.
- The only bright spot this season has been the cup victory.
Should I watch a match on TV, I choose football before hockey. If I watch a hockey match, it is not relaxation in the same way. Then I mostly sit and look at details that I can learn something from.
In an attempt to climb up the table, Gothenburg has, among other things, recruited home Pontus Wernbloom. Something that Lias applauds.
- Wernbloom is one of my favorite players. He also comes from the Kungälv region so I have always had a good eye for him. His energy will be important for the team, says Lias.
- I do not know him as a person but I like that he is straight and honest while he keeps a twinkle in his eye and does not take everything so seriously.
Lias played football himself until he was 13-14 years old.
- I think football is fantastic fun, and if I am going to watch a match on TV, I choose football before hockey, he says.
- If I watch a hockey match, it is not relaxation in the same way. Then I mostly sit and look at details that I can learn something from. However, when I watch a football match, I can only enjoy the game
Thanks for sharing. A great find. A few lines i took notice of including the following:
- What do you do when reality does not live up to the dream?
- It was to Jönköping that Lias Andersson moved as a teenager when he left his parents' home in Kungälv to start hockey high school.
- Separately, it was not really that big stuff, but I did a lot of stupid things. I have smashed lamps, mirrors, trash cans and of course a bunch of clubs. In addition, I could completely unnecessarily quarrel with judges and opponents.
- Sometimes it feels like many people forget that I am only 21 years old and that I still learn things both as a player and as a person.
IMO, the above speaks to what i have posted about. Kid from a distant country with big dreams, nothing to fall back on, finds himself going from the big lights on NY to a desolate room practically alone in Hartford. He was confused, alone, scared, lost.
Part of this is without question on the Rangers. They have to do a better job of taking care of these kids.